Sobriety is a tricky business for “certified” addicts. Reluctance is natural, and can be overcome using some (what suits you) techniques. But, when you have your own brain playing the illusionist on you, it’s better to seek help. That’s not at all easy. I tell everyone that the first step is always, as they call it, “Acceptance”. Acceptance doesn’t come by easily. It’s only after you have been battered way beyond your tolerance threshold that you “begin” to realize that you have a problem (like diabetes or other chronic illnesses).
Once you know you have a problem, you should ideally seek help. Help can in the form of family, friends, support groups and/or other people in recovery. I must warn you that you will get vehemently strong urges to go back to your substance of choice; but you have to learn to be sincere with your own self. People say you lose your will power; I agree to that only in part, because with at least 3 full months of abstinence you start regaining some of your self confidence and willpower and to be able to make a choice. I often feel that everyone has their “aha” moment when they realize that they made a wrong choice, which of course led to many other such choices.
Faith, is a big word
Addicts usually have low self esteem, so they are prone to not believing someone from their support system. Train yourself to be able to give all your own decisions in the hands of your support system. That will not only keep you sober, but give your brain chemistry some time to adjust to the new lifestyle. It only gets better with each passing day, but once you have walked the coal, the new “you” would be much, much stronger than you can imagine.
“Hope is a good thing, and no good thing ever dies”
as famously quoted by Tim Robbins (Andrew Dufresne) in the movie- Shaw Shank Redemption.
You can easily find out if you are someone who may be abusing substance/s. This link is actually from the AA website, but you can replace the word “alcohol” with your drug of choice. That’s where your support system has to play a vital role in maintaining your abstinence. Be truthful, be willing, be accepting and you will see the blue bird one day.
Additionally there are facebook and other independent chat rooms for people in substance abuse recovery.
Remember, if you think you have missed the bus and it is too late to quit, catch the next bus on the road to recovery. Good luck!